Sunday, April 30, 2006

letting go...(part1)

one of life's inevitable experience is learning to let go....physically, mentally and emotionally. when u are a kid, u have to learn to let go of ur parent's hand, to take ur first step by yourself. then u learn to let go of the toy in your hand, and learn the joy of sharing. as u grow up, u learn to let go of ur favourite past times-watching tv, skipping rope, day dreaming, to make time for more important things like studying and getting good grades. then u learn to let go of the security of your child hood home to gain independence, knowledge and maybe a life partner.
but the hardest part of letting go....is learning to let go of your loved ones. remember how worried your parents are when you have to leave them to pursue your studies? remember how it felt to let go of your first love, not because love has died, but because you realise that love alone does not mean you are compatible. sometimes, death has already claimed your loved ones, but it doesn't mean you have learned to let go.
letting go means accepting that it is already in your past, that you have to acknowledge the burning pain in your chest and release it. that without you, your loved ones have moved away, whether into the other realm or simply out of your life. to let go means that you pick up the pieces of your heart, and your memories, and allow time to painstakingly put them back together again...but it will never be the same. you may learn to laugh again, or to even cry, but it does not mean that you have forgotten about them. merely, that you have learned that to continue living, you have to let go of the past, live in the present and look into the future. but time does not really heal the pain, nor make it go away, sometimes, time just allows you to learn to deal with the pain better.

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